lonely.

this week's focal point: loneliness. When it comes to loneliness, I think it's cool to say that everyone at some point of lives have felt loneliness. Feeling alone when you have the house to yourself or having your bestest friend move away or breaking up with your partner, the list goes on. For me, I've felt the loneliness when I went overseas. Not having the physical present of your family or friends for two weeks was daunting and the whole society around you doesn't understand a word your saying. I mean I felt very vulnerable. 

i'm at the stage in my life where I don't care, well it's one of those things that doesn't concern me much as it should, kind of take on loneliness. I prefer it, but that's just personal preference. If it's anything to do with religion, I can say that yeah, God's with me. You know, but I'd be lying to you if I said I was like this all the time. There were times in the past where I'd think so hard and try to resolute to why I'm feeling abandoned and alone (to the point of tears). I don't think that way a lot now, and I have to thank God for cluttering my life with Him and junk. 

as for the social aspects, we now have things like social networking where we're all globally connected. But I think people would feel all the more lonely whenever they confide in things such as facebook and such. I know, look, I'm contradicting myself as we speak. But if' there's one thing I can say in defence is that, I think it's totally determined by our state of mind. Our attachment level to these things differ from person to person, I don't take facebook seriously, it's a good way to keep notified but it doesn't govern my life (I can say that proudly). I'm writing a new post now as a form of outlet, so my mind doesn't explode but I don't think I'm more lonely for starting one.

self-esteem is a big issue, as soon as you convince yourself that you're lonely, you begin to fall apart. Some people argue that you can't delude yourself because it's the truth, you have to look at what reality is showing you. Sure, I don't deny that. But what's the point in that? You're at a standstill because you're lost. So obviously the next step is how to get out of your shell of loneliness. And that's where things start to look brighter, because you know you're going to put that much effort in making your life better. 

people think in I'm denial of being lonely, but I don't care. I think people in general are intelligent beings to know when their lonely, so I don't need to remind myself or others everyday. Days go by without any drama, and that's life. We just got to suck it up and face another day; it's the cruel, inevitable way and it makes us that much stronger.